What's in my mind

Routine

Homemade breakfast of the day :)

The flow of my life has just entering into a turning point somehow. Well maybe it's because i have just started my job for a couple of weeks and i'm still learning to adapt myself in such a new environment. Thinking back about my first day, it was rather disappointed but i have made it though. Thanks for the encouragement from my dearest and managers.

On the fourth day, I got the news from my cousin that my aunty is going to pass away. I always know this time would come and I have ready for it in fact, she has been fighting for her cancer for few years already. I feel so sad to watch her fights till the last gasp of breath and the last tears that wet her eyes has stung my heart. She struggled and tried all her best to stay alive, maybe due to the fright of facing death she has gone through all kinds of chemotherapy. At the end, her body just couldn't take it, eventually she was too weak to fight any longer. RIP.

Back to my daily routine, my fellow coursemates have started their new sem. But it's actually a 3 months semester break we are having, and yes i have decided to work part time while the rest of my friends are taking some subjects in advanced. Hope everything goes well :)

I have been starting to meet more clients, so it's my 14th day now. Yes, i would confess that each time when i spend time to talk to some of my clients they leave me feeling like jealous, less interesting, less talented and under achiever. Nonetheless, i still appreciate all the people that i have talked to and it would be a time of change for myself to keep going.

So yeah, that's all about my current update. See ya, peeps!

Italinese dinner

Off day at Italinese! We ordered 3 starters, 2 main course and a strawberry cheesecake. At the end we had to take away the left over chicken, pasta and the cheesecake. LOL. I know we were a little greedy. The next day only i realized the cheesecake is way too large compared to the usual cheesecake out there. Nevertheless, it was still a very nice meal. The cheesecake is very nice even though I eat it after keeping in the fridge for another 2 days. i will go back for the cake for sure!

Exams ended.

Hey hey hey,

It's been a month!

I'm officially unbound from being slaves to my notes.

Neither happy nor sad though,

exhausted is the right word.

Most ridiculous was the last 3 papers!

In 48 hours,

broke my record,

6 cups of coffees,

40 hours sitting down with notes,

Sleep less than 6 hours.

Examination,

it finally slipped by.

After weeks of struggles and hard fights,

See you next year! :)

Too tired to think of any holidays plans. I need to sleep!!

Better together- jack johnson

(feat. Paula Fuga)

There is no combination of words I could put on the postcard
And no song that I could sing, but I can try because this is your heart and this is
Our dreams and they are made out of real things
Like a shoebox of photographs with sepia-toned loving
Love is the answer at least for most of the questions in my heart, like
Why are we here? And where do we go? And how come it's so hard?
It's not always easy and sometimes life can be deceiving
I'll tell you one thing, it's so much better when we're together

Mmm, so much better when we're together
Yeh, we'll look at the stars when we're together
Well it's so much better when we're together
Yeh, it's so much better when we're together

All of these moments just might find their way into my dreams tonight
But I know that they'll be gone when the morning light sings
Or brings new things for tomorrow night you see
They'll be gone too, to many things I have to do
But follow these dreams might find their way into my day to day scene
I'd be under the impression, I was somewhere in between
With only two, just me and you, not so many things we got to do
Or places we got to be, we'll sit beneath the mango tree now

Yeh, so much better when we're together
Mmm, we're somewhere in between together
Well, it's so much better when we're together
Yeh, so much better when we're together

I believe in memories because they look so,
So pretty when I sleep
And when I wake up you look so pretty sleeping next to me
But there is not enough time
And there is no, no song I could sing
And there is no combination of words I could say
But I will still tell you one thing
We're better together
We so much better when we're together
We so much better when we're together

Final examinations started today.

I hate this feeling so much.

Prepared for unprepared moments.

I seriously doubt if im getting stupider as i grow up.

I been drinking coffee these days and lacking of sleep. Perhaps.

My brain is running slower nowadays.

I seriously need to get some exercise

and live a healthy lifestyle from now onwards.

Sigh.

I'm so low in mood now ):

My ego.

The shield is way too thick to break,

and it leads to all the arguments.

An escape.

Omgosh, i almost dead just now at a cross junction. I didn't realised the traffic light has turned red and a bunch of motorbikes just accelerated their bikes toward my side. It was merely a few seconds difference to crash and collide into them, luckily i surpassed the blare of honks without a scratch. I saw angry faces muttering curses at me from the side mirror. At that instant i could barely feel my heart beating. I admit that i was not focusing and was driving with an empty mind due to lack of sleeping i guess.

So there, just came back from another random dimsum session with the girls at Kuchai at 10am, it was my idea but at the end i was too tired to wake up. By the way, I drove all the way to Kuchai to realize that i don't know how to get there actually. Back to facing my book now, i'm thinking a way to settle myself with them. I really needed to ground myself in a room without my laptop and my phone or whatever devices that can get me connected with outside world. I should have pack my books and some food along and get back to setapak, the empty condominium. Maybe it's the best way to force myself to study. Getting away from all sorts of distractions.

So here i am doing my last update at facebook, hotmail and my blogspot. I tumbled across bing's blog, i find it rather funny when she said "如果人类都像bacteria那样一团团" (If human were born with the shape of bacteria-->dough-like). Well, I was exactly thinking the same thing; if everyone is identical to each other, then there would be no sexual attraction between people anymore. I guess i won't even bother to get myself dressed up for every single outings. I couldn't imagine my dough-like figure either, with the fact that im clubbier and flabbier compared to others. Wth!

Shall do the full stop here. have a nice day~

It's just a habit.

Sometimes, i would hang on there just to listen to your snore when i knew you had fell asleep while i was telling you about my wonderful stories. Because i worry if i hang up the call, you would awaken by the cut-off-tone. So i would just wait and wait till i make sure that you are sleeping deep enough to aware if i hung.

You call me every night at a fixed time, probably calling me has became your habit before you sleep. But one thing i couldn't tolerate is how you got distracted while you're calling me. I am enough of your denials because i just knew it whenever you didn't pay attention to me. I wasn't being sensitive at all, i'm aware of it indeed. It takes you so long before you respond to my question and to be frank i'm frustrated of waiting for your respond. Tears would roll down my cheeks while i'm waiting in the silence between the conversation but you seem perfectly fine with that. It's because you were too busy to even notice you had paused for awhile!

You knew it pretty much that i didn't like it, but you just do it repeatedly. You seem more interesting on clicking and checking your facebook, texting a friend or even playing a PSP while you're calling me! FML, anything but me. Tonight, I'd lost my strength and my heart stinging with pain. My tears burns in the back of my throat i wanted to tell you how much i felt. I don't think there is even a point anymore for you to call me.

Rollable-flats.

I am looking for a rollable-flats so badly! Where can i get this in Malaysia? This is a must-have-shoes for every women. Especially for a girl like me who rely so much on heels, because they simply make my legs look longer and slimmer. While it is true that they make my legs look slimmer, it also bring suffer to me in the name of good looking. My angry boyfriend complaints alot whenever i wore high heels for date because i just couldn't take it after a few hours of walking. Apparently, i have to bring an extra sandals and a paper bag with me. This is funny for him, and i felt the same way too. This is not a new thing anymore, i know i m so outdated to just found out that Footzyrolls has started its collection since 2009 at Miami, Florida. These flats are stylish, comfortable and most important it can be stuff in even my clutch! Unfortunately, i tried to purchase from their website but malaysia is not available!

Photos are taken from HERE.

Do you know about this? Please let me know if u do.

More info please google about FootzyRolls

See ya peeps~

Wanna go Taiwan.

Well, this had bugging me for awhile so, trying to decide whether to go for a backpacking trip or just purchase a round island trip instead?

I had spent a few hours searching for a good deal at Matta Fair last Friday. Unfortunately, i couldn't find a package which would include the air fares plus a maximum of 3 days of tours only because i was planning to extend the return flight so that we could travel on ourselves for the remaining days. Saddest news was, we'd missed the RM199 taipei all-in-fares!! It was sold out when we finally decided to call up the agent on the last day which was yesterday. :( sad sad sad So now the returns flight becomes RM800 per pax T.T This late decision costs RM500, good grief!

I'm planning a trip to visit Taiwan end of this year and i can't wait for it. In my heart, i am pretty sure that I wanted to explore on my own rather than following a bunch of people and everything is nicely planned ahead for us. I had experience a backpacking trip before and i love it so much!

The date is already confirmed, i'm travelling on 1st Jan 2011! Now i'm waiting for my passport to get done and all the reservations for accommodation over there. I have contacted a few of them and hopefully things will sail smoothly. And i have decided to get myself a new gadget - a wide angle lens for this trip. Just mere thinking about it, i'm so excited by now. Meanwhile, i will be working for 3 months during my coming semester break.

Shyt, I supposed to be studying for finals now. So, I need to temporarily leave this thing aside before it affects my study motivation!

Gao Mei Shi Di 高美溼地

Su Hua Road 苏花公路(Copied from Jenny's blog)

Will you ever miss me?

Recently, emotions overwhelmed me. I tend to caught in a deep thought so easily when i am stuck at home alone. Not exactly my home, i have been hiding out myself these days in my currently rented condominium. Partly due to i have been slave to my books for the finals which is just lying around the corner.

After came across with some blogs and some statuses people posting at facebook, i just realized i have really miss my high school friends so much. And now it hits me, I wonder if someone ever miss me out there? Frowning..

I'm suffering of remorse after keeping broken contacts with them. I should have said hello once in awhile to tell them that i miss them. Speaking of reality, if i ever did that i'm afraid of the respond that i will be getting. Saddest part is, they might be thinking if i was forwarding a text to a wrong person. Or in worse case, getting no replies. Maybe because i'm not even worth that 10cents of text.

Uni stuff had piled up like endless stories. Perhaps it is the only reason we ended up into individual life like now. Even though i had attended as much as possible meet ups i could, but i think it's just not enough. The bonding between us are not that real anymore. Because we never share a thing anymore beside than casual greetings. I wish we will share all the stories ever again, just like how we did last time.

Not trying to seek for any attentions but i crave for cares, indeed.

As they come and go.

Friends come and go in life. Just a couple of months ago, another of them leaved.

There were three of us, being observed as good friends to others. We always spent time together during classes, though we don't share much about our personal stories but we get along quite well, at least we never fight. Maybe it is because we did not share much and things started to evolve as the underlying strangeness creep in. It will never be worked out, i tried to save the whole matter but it was a bit too late. The calm water is now full of ripples, both of them realized they have so much in conflicts. Therefore, our friendships went crashed to the hard ground and die into nothing. I was very very pissed and disappointed at a point, to be ditched by someone. It grew loathing in me.

I believe every man will eventually go through a time to change for a greater good. I hope you would learn to be a better man in your newly found-oh-so-comfortable-zone with your mate. Man with mature thinking seems lesser nowadays, i wonder where are they exactly hiding at.

I am glad that another one stayed with me, we begun to share a little more than ever. After all, i think friendships should share their feelings with each other, in order to keep the momentum to goes on. As time passes on, i begin to think that life is too short to angry over someone. Moreover, to hate someone is weary.

Whenever you request for a help i will still lend my hand, because we were friends.

What used to be good.

Every time when I'm sad or angry, I can hardly utter a word because words are hiding inside the glands of my brain. I know what is it supposed to speak but I keep it quiet instead. It feels like I had split into a few me and start speaking among myself.

I feel sad when i realized we do not share a single mutual interest. I'm dread to think if things get worse till that day came. The day when we pass by each other without saying hello. The day when my heart had crushed into a million pieces. The flames of anger blinded yourself, every single word you deliver is hurtful. My tears were helpless and i hope you could kiss them dry.

I think to myself what used to be good, then I printed a last kiss on your chest to replace the word sorry.

If you think that life is bad..

How would you like to be an egg?

You only get to be laid once.

You only get eaten once.

It takes 4 minutes to get hard.

Only 2 minutes to get soft...

You share your box with 5 other guys.

But worse of all..

The only chick that ever sat on your
face is your Mother!

So cheer up! Your life isn't so bad.




This made my day~ nights!

Notice my smile when i slide my fingers into yours.

Despite of all the fights we had, we are still together. The wheel of time had forward so fast before i could notice, and now it brought us to the 15th month. All the moments when we kissed and hugged each other, so real like the air i breath in every day, the feelings are just beyond descriptive words.

That night as i stared upon your sleeping face, i shed. Of all the love you richly poured on me, how much have i returned? Things that i hunger from you are getting stronger as i commit myself to this affair. I laughed myself for trying to change you into someone that i desired. It took me long before i realized to change own self is hard, let alone others. I felt guilty over my selfishness and the pain i gave you.

Life is now giving a hard lesson to me, a lesson for understanding myself. It is rather hard to distinguish myself because in the midst of my pondering mind, i had lost my direction. There are several characters inside that constantly transforming from one into another. It comes to my fear that no longer do i know what I want, I'd stuck in the definition of perfection and imperfection. My dreams, should they be given up and be introduced to reality? Or i shall shake off all my doubts in head and just go with the flow as time marches on, to tell myself it's perfect. But, the urge of wanting more and stepping to wondrous land are kept pushing my mind goes astray. I am afraid, afraid that time would ruin everything that had built.

Like any other girls, I like sweet sucking words, cute little texts in the morning, heart throbbing and heart trashing surprises anytime. I crave because i want it from you. No one else, but you.

An old song i haven't heard in awhile.

People once told me, time heals wound, but guess my wound took unusual long enough to heal. Listening to an old song, i indulged myself with the voyage of seeking for something..

I tried not to wander back. I let my life run faster so that time could wash away the darkest, unwanted part of my memories. But sometimes, things that i encountered remind me of everything. Once, i had convinced myself to let go but unconscious moment hits me and emotions begin to strike as i watched my past flows by. I am so confused why this part of my unwanted memory kept appearing. I could not comprehend why do i still feel sad, the invisible sadness that lie so deep inside my soul as if it has almost vanished away, yet the shadows can be seen at times.

It must be the scar that were once the pains, it does not fade with time but like echoes chasing me so close, whispering into my ears, trying to remind me of something, something that i tried to run away so far from it awhile ago.

In times of heartache, it came to my realization that i wanted to immortalize things in my thoughts. Perfectly sealed it and locked it at the darkest, deepest corner of my heart. I wanted to meet someone in future, whom is so closely that could replaces that empty space. But, is that possible? Do i really have the fate?

Unknowingly, my thoughts run too wildly till another morning came by. The sun beam pierces through the curtain, i'm dread to think any further because i knew very well that jealousy is killing me little by little.

Beneath the rain...

雨天
好冷
哪儿有拥抱买?

人总是很傻
明明知道不可能的事
却越满怀希望
结果失望

失望
就像从高空下坠
一碰地面就碎成粉沙

女生为何爱口是心非?
明明很想却装出一副一无其事的样子
最后还不是恨自己

还是快把那个thermo读完， 然后大睡一场
也许不开心的都能忘记。

Top 5 cancer-causing food

Hot dogs

high in nitrates, the Cancer Prevention Coalition advises that children eat no more than 12 hot dogs a month.

Processed meats and bacon

high in sodium nitrates found in hot dogs, bacon, and other processed meats raise the risk of heart disease. The saturated fat in bacon contributes to cancer.

Doughnuts

Doughnuts are cancer-causing double trouble. First, they are made with white flour, sugar, and hydrogenated oils, then fried at high temperatures.t to raise your risk of cancer.

French fries

Like doughnuts, French fries are made with hydrogenated oils and then fried at high temperatures. They also contain cancer- causing acryl amides which occur during the frying process.

Chips, crackers, and cookies

Made with white flour and sugar. Even the ones whose labels claim to be free of trans-fats generally contain small amounts of trans-fats.

Pls, you don't deserve it!

Today, I drove to school early in the morning hopefully could reserve a parking at S block. By 8am I managed to reach to the campus. As I don't often drive to school, therefore I do not familiar with rule that I need to prepare my student id for the guard to "check in".

I requested politely if s block still has some space for me and the guard on duty nodded. I was happy and quickly dug out my wallet to get my id card and handed it to the guard. When the card was just about to reach his hand, an old man came out and commanded me to do a U-turn. The gutless no-position guard handed back my id to me. It was strictly meant “forget about the parking at S block!” to me. I tried to explain myself that I didn’t know because I seldom drive.

Miserably, not even a word that went in to his ears. Worst still, he then raised his voice to repeat himself and commanded me to leave. I was stunned by his intolerant and was certainly extreme upset of his prejudiced attitude. I muttered curses under my breath and drove away. As I swallowing my anger down to my stomach, an incident that happened last week flashed through my mind, and tears burst in the back of my throat. Conflicts we came across last week were rather exasperated, I aware that he was taking thing personally and treated me bias this morning. I guess he was fumed by the curse I made last week.

Awhile later, I finally found somewhere to park my car outside the school and tried to chill myself down. But, I cried all my way from the back entrance to the dsa block. Later I registered myself again at the student affair to make the complaint about the security for the second time as I have did it just last week.

I was weak to control my emotions at that moment and was sobbing in the office till I chilled down. The staff waited patiently and finally we talked about that matter. Soon, she called him on the phone to clarify the matter I reported. And I was right that he was angry about the curse I made last week. He heard I was calling him to hell. What is funny was he said i was blocking the way where there was only one car behind me, and my id was almost in the guard's palm. He wanted apologize from me to settle the matter.

Ironically, he was the one who did not listen to my request last week, when I told him I just wanted to pick up my friend; unreasonably, they assumed that I wanted to park at s block. No matter how much I explained, and I even suggested him a way that will make sure I will be out of the school area in very soon, but they were all useless because he NEVER listen and ignore everything I tried to explain. For god’s sake, I have my limitation also kay.

I laughed in a sarcastic way and asked the lady staff to try to stand in my shoes. In addition, I did clarified to her that I was just expressing my frustration by three words “what the heck”. And I was not even cursing to him. Retarded old man, gosh! I came back to the office at 10pm, now she told me that he was complaining about my courtesy all these while. Well, all I could say is I give in to all your nonsense. I am certain that if you were treating me right, I wouldn’t need to be rude in the first place. I’m just letting u to taste your own medicine. How does it taste? Real disappointed with Utar’s management, ain’t students should be treated as the first priority? All I can see is the feigned ignorance to this whole affair by standing on the very unprofessional security’s side. NO CHOICE, this is Utar!

Feeling sick when i don't even know who is lying!! Tick tock tick tock.. Don't believe anyone, just believe yourself. Make sure never listen to one side. Be responsible of your very own stuff when u're living outside especially when you share one unit with some unknowns..

想生病。

我想生病。生病就像一场人生的思考，可以让人沉静。這樣可以让人更清醒地去认识自己﹐去检点自已，也希望能在迷迷糊糊的病態中沉睡﹐然後把那些不快樂的都变成了过往云烟。也许只是因为我想要一些关怀。 昨晚向你要求了那二十分鐘陪我聊天﹐因為你不肯所以我說讓你看完你的連續劇就直接去睡。我很傷心你竟然說我無理取鬧不肯多等你二十分鐘﹐不讓你有自己的私人時間﹐不顧你的感受﹐最後還把電話給蓋了。我哭了好久好久。你不要一直把我弄哭然後又不讓我哭好嗎。那你又有試過了解我的心情嗎。真的有嗎。我只是不想等到兩點半去。我很討厭自己就是不夠你罵﹐每次都是罵輸。我是女孩子叻﹐男生不都應該讓女生嗎。剛剛我好好的跟你說我需要想一想﹐你就不能讓我想想嗎。一直問我要想什麼﹐最後還是把罵成是我的錯。以前那個很好很好的人好像已經迷路在森林﹐再也找不回了。好像已經不比以往那樣珍惜我﹐一直要我背上所有的錯誤。幾時開始你已經沒再認錯﹐沒再認真的道歉過。你的現在的道歉好像都不像以前的那種懇求得到原諒的道歉。你的朋友都說是你把我給寵壞了﹐是你的朋友比較了解我還是你?你都開始不寵我﹐一直說我在你的心刮了很多橫疤。我現在很想很想生病。

Received something that can only caused me respondless.

The heart is the place where we live our passions. It is frail and easily broken, but wonderfully resilient. There is no point in trying to deceive my heart. It depends upon my honesty for its survival, that y i wanna say that, "my heart have gr8 reasons dat reasons does not really understand how much i feel about you.... Can't stop thinking of you angel!!...

I received above text message from a guy, we just know each other recently. I seriously don't know what to feel about it. Hope you're okay now.

The sour feeling is burning my stomach.

Perhaps, it is true that everyone has their very own fated destination. Sometimes i would still envious of some life which had perfectly well planned by the god. At times, i dislike what is going on with myself, the life. Always wish that i could one day change it and be like one of those kind, the beautiful ones. When comes to comparison with the poor ones, i know i should be glad that i am way better compared to those poor ones. But i am too weak to convince my heart to not jealous of them, though i knew it very much that there is no point at all. It is just a way to be optimistic about fate, isn't it. I never stop dreaming of getting the bigger the better, like whomsoever i had admired how nice is their life. At this point, it leads me to greed more and become more selfish. It is hard for me, but i have left no choice but to study them and eventually hopefully i can accept them. Appreciate is easy, but greed is stronger, more evil.

Mixed feelings.

Urgh.. 3 more days, Utar is waiting for me. How should i feel at this moment? Mixed feelings, seriously. Thinking back my sem 1 and sem 2, if it is not assignments and tutorials i should be dead long ago. Bunch of guy friends. Ping Pong during break time, what a life!! Canteen food was sucks. No leng lui and leng cai for me to peep on.

Chicken Chop rice.

But one thing i really missing it right now is the chicken chop rice which was recommended by my sister at one of the hawker stalls nearby TBR. Yummilicious. Best ever food i had in setapak. LOL. maybe setapak doesn't bad as i described, i should have explore more.. hmmph.

Well, there is another i am worrying right now. The place that i currently rented has thief!! Gosh. and the suspected one is my housemate(Main tenant's roommate). First, my money was stolen by unknown, i found it out when i was going to pay for my food at school. Then i thought maybe i have misplaced it. Months later, i got to know that another housemate also lost her money. And the money was kept inside her drawer in her room without the lock. Her room is linked to the master bedroom through the shared washroom and has no lock. Which means they can excess to each other rooms. Then last week i received a call from the housemate, said that another housemate encountered the same problem. Another RM150 is gone. And this afternoon they called me again and told me that they lost both their laptop's battery. Eventually they fought with the main tenant and the roommate over the incidents. They obviously denied it strongly and said that "we are so rich and why would we wanna take your money, perhaps you guys are the thieves and simply blame us for that." That sounds a little stupid though. As they updated me again, i got to know that they are moving out of the house by end of this month. So they are now temporarily staying at friend's house while looking for a new place with better facilities. In another words, they didn't plan anything for me and my roommate. Much to my disappointment, they were just assume that we have our own friends to help us out. Urghh, so selfish.

So now u get me what is the mixed feelings.

Happy New Year to ya!

My holidays started about a month ago and now it is almost reaching to the end as next week will be the beginning of my semester 3. It was really low stress and high on joys. All of that happenings special thanks to all my dear friends and beloved ones. The school work is done, the days are picked up, the meals are planned and I'm open to whatever adventures i dream up. So there it is. Everything.

I watched the movies. Enjoyed the nice food. Been to Gathering as much as i can to meet up with my old friends before the uni restarts and i got grounded at Setapak. One thing i love the most is travel to places randomly because my camera was excited, and we were exploring towards great places and inspiration just hit me right on the mood. LOL

Handmade x'mas cookies

As for Christmas, i finally open up the dusty oven and do the baking after a very long pause. And i did some handcraft too for the X'mas presents exchange. Some of you might wonder, why do we need to do things only on that particular day or going out for a fancy dinner and jostle each other in the crowd. Because this is the big day and so we must enjoy it. It is worth celebrating with every good thing we have can. This is life, and life never bored with all these.

Randomly drove down to Malacca.

More importantly it was part of the plan, the holidays plan.

And finally the year of 2009 is ended. Of all the passed 20 years, it was the greatest year. So many first-time-encounters. As i came across a blog of my friend, she made me realized lots of great things that i did in the year of 2009.

On 1st Jan 2009, i was with her sitting down on a little hill nearby to her place. No fancy party but just two lost kids desperately hoping for fireworks from everywhere. Simple yet i had so much fun! But the fireworks were like tiny little drop of popcorns. Kesian, at the end i had to like photoshop our photos by download some fireworks. Then i earned the biggest amount of income in four months time(12k). I learned to go clubbing. I bought most dresses and cosmetics. Bought myself a laptop, a Dslr 1000d. First time study in a university and partially moved out of my house and pay for my own rental. And first time someone asked me to become his girlfriend, first time accepted the boy after the encouragement. And also first time, someone (not the boyfriend) confessed to me in person. Sorry for him, i was left to say thank you politely to him only. I don't really believe in fall in love at first sight though. I guess he was about to read a poem to me. LOL The most restaurants i dine in were japanese restaurants. Eventually i had all the free movies, pity the boy had to pay for all my bill. But he used to tell me it's all worth it so I am happy too. Not because of the bill, but everything! Nevertheless, the last day of 2009 i spent it at a little hill also. But this time with the crowd, and the fireworks were awesome. 75% romantic. Stand by the roadside and admire how the fireworks being spilled out of the lighted up little town below the hill.

Langkawi Oct '09

Eton Mess. Best dessert of the year!!

All in all, it's pretty busy, pretty full, and there's lots of wiggle in life..

I hope that I can pass on some of the love and the joy that was so richly poured out on me. Maybe for some of you may think that those are just normal little things, but i find them pretty interesting because i always take little things special.

Wishing a better year ahead. Much of love!!

xoxo

Now i am dreaming our dreams.