Choice and consequence.

A marvel at every sight, each fleeting moments, while all else crash and scatter in the free space. As if there is a sea of the truths, the sanity, the explanations. Numerous of questions swirl and scratch inside my skull and my emotions conflicted. I could scream no voice but helplessly listen to a thousand of the muffled voices that whispering the reminiscences of this tiresome journey of life. Through my pupils, I saw the familiar girl once again. Being pushed, pulled, jolted and mocked, collapsed then recovered. She is my reflection. At times like these, where i smirk at my fate and try to against it with my fragile mind. How much can i endure before i break apart? How frustrated when you try to run away, and change everything; so that you may see and feel everything anew. Then you realized it will gets back to initial point once again. Often, i wonder of my existence, the necessity to deal with pains and face the harsh. I could see it way better if i stand out of the frame. This voyage seems beyond reach and infinite and you would dumbfounded by the destination. Forever and ever trapped in this resolved nightmares.

This free fall into the oblivious grows tiresome.

In the flames of love, hate, jealousy, deception and pain which one burn you the most?
How does it feels when all of above burn and swallow you up in merely a few seconds? Like a song that you haven't heard in a very long time. It makes you wander back to your past, searching for those pictures were once familiar. When your feelings almost real, nearly wanted to smile and think that you are a most lucky person in this world then reality would strikes you and everything just disappear in a zap of light. There you start to feel alone because the one supposed to understand you, doesn't. Solitude because what you like and what you want doesn't seem matter to him/her. Lost because the warmth and sincerity that was once there has been replaced by anger and disappointment. Have you been waiting for someone for an hour and you are so helpless and alone in the dim surrounding. Nobody bother to phone you or walk out of the house to check whether you are there. What if you have no phone with you or probably you are having some dangers. If one has to pay so much just to achieve something so simple, I prefer being nothing. I am weak tonight. Too weak to hold back the water from streaming down of my misty eyes. My own mind is getting me restless. I hope the path i walk on can be destroyed so i may not backtrack into ignorance.
At this moment, all i wanted to say is I REALLY MISS YOU.

Yesterday what I dreamt is today what i seen.

Ho ho ho! Merry christmas.

Woah, i just got home and now it is already 4 am. Yeap, you are right i sneaked in my home again. It was my first time drive to Cineleisure at midnight! Of course there was no reason for me not to get lost on the highways again. I don't remember i have made how many u-turns. Even though i just went there last week, but somehow i just couldn't get my sense of direction right. *shrug*

I had Bedtime Stories tonight, overall the movie was ok a little comedy yet a little boring. So i guess this is my christmas, nothing much, no presents exchange, no celebration, just a free movie and remembered a couple of highways. So sad right.

OMG, something must have shared here. Currently I've been really addicted to twilight and you will never believe if i tell you that I'd spent 20 hours non stop reading it. Fell asleep at 2am in the morning and suddenly woke up at 4am grabbed the book on the bed and continue reading. Totally insane right.

But i didnt get to finish it because i have only one day time and promised to return it to cy. Until now, i m now missing Edward and Bella. Arghh! *frustrated*

Fight against the illusion or creativity?

The biggest mistake i have made on that day was replying a message to a wrong number. It was a morning, feeling really bored as usual because my only entertainment has been taken away by my sister, the computer. So, i had a sudden urge to read something to kill my time. I texted yee mun and she agreed to borrow me some books. At the same time, it happened that i was texting my another friend to plan about yee mun's birthday. Maybe i got all too excited and accidentally i sent the msg to a wrong number, it was the birthday girl. Dang! How dumb at times i can be.

What is worse was i did not realised it at all. Grabbed almost half a row of her books and drove home. [still did not realised anything] After that, as usual i m a absentminded people and of course conveniently forgot about the message. Was spending my whole day on one of the book and finally settled my dinner as well. Something was not right, i felt like somthing was missing after i came out of my bath.

So i was thinking why was chui yee did not reply my message yet and i did a double checking in my phone. Chin dropped and eyes widen! Ran to my house phone and called cy, i had screwed up that surprise part. Without wasting anymore time, we made our further discussion. Conclusion was baking a cake for her but somehow we were no idea what cake to bake.

First, I came out with this idea.


3 pairs of hands doing one job.


Mixing.


Weighing


Cooling after baking.


Cutting off the edges.


Tracing it out.


Frosting.


Different from its sketch huh?


Ta da~!


Nice?

Last, cleaning up!

Before i forget, happy birthday to yee mun! hope you love the cake! LOL

Feelings are so invisible.

I have always thought holidays are something really fun, but it seems that like i was wrong.

I have been stuck at home for few days already, spider mommy is now sewing her web on my hair! How sad. I'm very broke and can't go out for any shopping or movies. You know, outside the world is all about money. No money you better sit at home and make no noise!

Finally, feng called and we went to the pasar malam in OUG at 10pm. Haha, unfortunately it was a lil drizzling and all the mongers were packing their stuff. With disappointment, we hoped for supermarkets but it was impossible because it was already 10 something. Then we ended up chilling ourselves at station one cafe.



And i sneaked in to my house on tiptoes at 2am. LOL! *shhhh*

If you don't jot down you forget.

Urhm, Okay! I'm finally free to update my blog. There are so many things to write about. Where shall I start? Huh.. [Nervous! nervous!] I forgot how to do blogging!

Ok, let's recall back...

One month ago,
I was doing really busy in McD with all my books. Almost everyday I will go there with Feng and I can actually memorize their menu and prices already! [Hahaha!] Probably the workers over there can recognize us as well! [Oh, kg(s) up!][$ down]

2 weeks ago,
I had done with all my papers and finally get rid of all the books from bugging me. [Phew!] No more nightmares! No more jumping up of my bed during the midnights. No more memorizing facts! No more McD! Who cares what Einstein’s equation is!

One week plus 3 days ago,
It was a Friday's morning, woke up at 9am and was preparing for Jogoya's late lunch. Urhh, the food was ok! But they did not taste as good as what they have rumored about. Rm60 gulped down my throat. 11 of my classmates, 1 schoolmate and 4 unknown new peeps were there. After unhealthily stuffed our stomachs, we went for some chilling at GSC and we had Twilight. The movie was ok, another love story between a vampire and a human.

9 days ago,
Managed to dream under my blanket until 3pm in the noon. Did a quick wash up and then went out with Feng to KL. Out of plans, we ended up ourselves at Guardian warehouse sales somewhere near Jaya 33. We were like lost aunties who simply scream for cheap stocks! [Oh, a lil exaggerating] Gosh, can't believe this happened on me! Reached KL at 4pm. Woah, it poured hard. Oh ya, kind of sad wei when we were informed that the ticket prices had gone up to 30%. Damnit.

8 days ago,
Ohh, woke up late!!! I forgot about the bbq party. Still managed to reach Feng's house at 5pm. Meet friends and another day of stuffing food into my stomach T.T [Poor stomach] After that went to Old Town white coff. Hee, a lil bored though.

A week ago,
I have lost my memory of that day! Remembered i went to Old Town white coffee cafe at night til 11.30pm. 12.30am, was hurrying packing my stuff for the next day backpacking trip. My eyes were so heavy yet I haven't stuff a single thing into my beg. 3am finally I was done and ready to sleep. Gosh, my dad kept knocking on my room door and telling me what to do during my Perak trip! 4.30am finally have done with everything, fainted dead on my bed!

Off to Perak for 4 days.

An hours ago,
The next morning when i got up, threw up everything that i have eaten last night. Rest of the day, i just spend it on sleeping. [Was having high fever] 12 hours of sleeping didn't cure my sickness, gave up and taken Panadol [after get scoldings from my mom]. Eew, i swear i will never go back to Murni for any meals anymore. So, another day just gone like that.

today,
I was sitting in front of my com waited for bing see to online since this morning. I want photos. But she hasn't appeared yet until now! =(
A total of 14 hours of waiting her!

No adventure No gain No us!

Woke up late again!!! A call from Feng had freaked me out. Gosh, 7am already!! Gotta hurry up to the Pudu station. Rushing and more rushing to the bus stop! by 11am, we reached Ipoh town, simply loafing around the town and crave for the famous food in the town. But we have no idea what are they? [huh?!famous?is it?]
Then we took a cab and off to the hot spring at Tambun. Oh, guess what! We got coned by the taxi driver, he simply dump us outside the hot spring and told us it was inside the cave. Some construction workers informed us that the hot spring was currently under construction then only we realised we were being ditched at somewhere unknown by the con artist!
So, with our RM10.30 map from MPH we walked to the nearby water park, LOST WORLD.[Suit us, lost people!] After hesitated for awhile we paid RM25 for each to enter the water park. It was then not bad. They have a so called mini hot spring. Dunno whether real or not. Don't care larh, can see the lime stones[maybe fake one] considered good already. I had fun during the water splashing time! Oh, and bully JP time. Then 8.oopm met my dad's friend. Overnight at somewhere.[complicated larh]
lessons learnt, uncles talk alot than aunties in Ipoh!

We were actually lost!

Tambun Lost World.

Tired.

Marinated chicken ready for barbecue tomorrow!

The next day,
My dad's friend's brother's son fetched us to the bus stop at 7.30am after a breakfast treat from the son's mom. [LOL, complicated enough huh] So, our next destination was to Lenggong Town, some old history place.
After we did some groceries and then we looked for my dad's another friend according to the map that my dad have sketched for me =) Before reaching the waterfalls, we dropped by at a museum which famous of the Perak Man for 15 minutes visit. Eventually, we reached Lata Kekabu and hiked some distance upstream and the main waterfalls came into our view. We put down out stuff, and started to set up our campfire. Someone declared herself as 'Campfire King!' [Oh, never forget we met with my awesome KAUFU!] I love our sexy chickens! After the chilling and soaking for some hours, we left the waterfalls and departed to my grandma's house. After the dinner, we hang out around the village and feel for the breeze which seldom can be found in the city nowadays.
Memories in my heart forever, LOVE u my friends!

Getting excited!

Lenggong Town.

Ideal location we found.

Our bonfire.

Photographing.


Feeding ourselves.

Soaking and leisuring time! Let's splash it high.


Cam whoring.

The countryside.

Another day morning,
We were being blared by the alarms yet no one has any respond to it. At the end, Bing managed to woke all of us up. [feeling guilty for being a lazy pig] Missed one bus, ended up waiting on the highway for like one hour! Somehow, we managed to reach Taiping by changing bus after bus. [woo, can't stand those bumpy buses!] Bing was running for more toilets! Our next stop was Maxwell Hill [Bkt. Larut]. Only photos could describe how nice are the scenery. Gosh, heavenly breeze up there even it was 3pm in the noon! Meet with the Uncle-takmau-lets-go! His driving jeep skills amazed me. I had a lil de javu feelings about my childhood memories over there! Owh, time past as the wind blew past me and that reminded me it was the third day already, it's time to go home. No! I don't wanna leave! [play dead on the ground XP] After that we walked to the Lake Garden. Feng vomited and sicked. Jun Ping constipation and fever! Me and Bing See, still healthy. =) [Tao yan~] Chilled out at McD while waiting for my dad Taiping's friend. Again, out of plans we stayed in Taiping for another night. [Happy in heart][jumping around]

Leaving the Selat Pagar and heading to next destination, Taiping.

T.T waited for an hour.

Sunny day!


I kept disturbing BS for fun. [ahaahaha]

The jeep speeding uphill, woah woahh woahhh!

Laugh like there is no tomorrow.

Lake Garden.

2 days ago,
We did the walking for the last day before we found a bowl of porridge for Feng. You know, cheap food are mere everywhere. There are 2 or 3 big food courts and variety choices of food are waiting for you. Then Uncle kevin helped us out for tickets back to KL. [tears rolled down, meet the reality! Home!] Bing and Me kept craving for more food. Finally reached PJ at 7pm. Say goodbye to my RM140 after 4days 3 nights! [hee, considered quite cheap!] Went for a dinner with Feng at Murni. Back to my sweet home and of course, sleep. That midnight, feeling very unusual.