This free fall into the oblivious grows tiresome.

In the flames of love, hate, jealousy, deception and pain which one burn you the most?
How does it feels when all of above burn and swallow you up in merely a few seconds? Like a song that you haven't heard in a very long time. It makes you wander back to your past, searching for those pictures were once familiar. When your feelings almost real, nearly wanted to smile and think that you are a most lucky person in this world then reality would strikes you and everything just disappear in a zap of light. There you start to feel alone because the one supposed to understand you, doesn't. Solitude because what you like and what you want doesn't seem matter to him/her. Lost because the warmth and sincerity that was once there has been replaced by anger and disappointment. Have you been waiting for someone for an hour and you are so helpless and alone in the dim surrounding. Nobody bother to phone you or walk out of the house to check whether you are there. What if you have no phone with you or probably you are having some dangers. If one has to pay so much just to achieve something so simple, I prefer being nothing. I am weak tonight. Too weak to hold back the water from streaming down of my misty eyes. My own mind is getting me restless. I hope the path i walk on can be destroyed so i may not backtrack into ignorance.
At this moment, all i wanted to say is I REALLY MISS YOU.