可恶的咒语

对
我不是那位新的
到底那里错了
为什么要那样对我
又被讨厌了
该死的咒语
我已尽力了
说什么都没用了
好难过
只能啃在喉咙
沉睡
遗忘
时间
会给我答案的

Wake up from the yesterday dream

When mood is bad
Shed to let go your emotion
Just be a kid
It's okay don't worry
A relationship doesn't promise forever
A break off would be a mistake in life
But it doesn't mean end of the world
Stop torturing yourself
Let it be another fullstops in the chapter
Your dream had finished
There is more to discover
And the final understanding would set yourself free
See things much clearer
Where is the one who always encourage me
When i meet failure
teach me to be strong
I gave myself a month time
Chance to make things difference
Now i m seeing the weak you
Trust me
It will one day be disappeared in the darkness
Faded as time passed
Gently and quietly
My love to you, friend

Things go wrong, blame it on me.

Glance back to my footsteps i left, i see a person with pieces of regret inside her head. Chances in life sliding away, some lessons that been refused, taken the unwise route, things go faded. Only something that left vivid, that is memory, the strongest thing remains after a journey. I'm tired. Let the tears make the rest of the my day in this empty universe. By still hoping there is a colour could slip in and make things a little different. But the higher I hope the harder i am tumbling down the ground. I am not a person who share feelings, I keep for my own. I am always insecure. Friends come and go. Wonder is there anyone for me to cry on without asking me a thing? Please embrace me hard. I'm so alone.

除了她，你应该谁也看不见。

It is hard for one to play two roles at a time. Hide up all the feelings that one supposed to express. Some says, the farthest journey in this world is not between life and death but the distance between me and you, where I'm standing in front of you and you never realize how much i am into you. It takes courage to love someone. We will share the same love only in silence when we understand each other. Bring me into a way of your understanding because i never understand what love is. I keep giving them away but only some are returning to me. By doing it carefully and not so obvious, I would not jump in recklessly and could save myself from heartbreaking. Until now, I still remember the curse of my life. I'm afraid. I've always thought fell down too often will grow one stronger. But in fact, it grows fear in me. The scar may be torn even wider. There is no one for me. I shall fight all alone till the end of the journey of this life.
How can we get a love so true. How nice. How sad.

It's a deadline week so i have a lot more to do and to catch up to the top closer. Deep sigh. Disappointments just kept on hitting me, blank promises seem fine with the world. Excuses over excuses, just to ease off their guiltiness! I've lost the faith in people.

Bloody moody nowadays!!!! =(

So Close Yet So Far

The invisible wall, separating both.
Not sure where they are standing.
So close yet so far.
But i could feel you.
The feeling i once felt.
Pieces of broken glasses,
stabbed and pierced through the weak heart.
Everything gone.
The scent.
The warmth.
The naughtiness.
Like a kid had fell down.
Cry out for mama.
I wish i could ease off your sadness.
The wound will closed and mend one day.
Bless you.




It's just beyond reach.

Good choices of mind

God grant me the serenity
To make good food choices;
Courage to turn away from baked goods;
And energy to exercise daily.
Living healthy one day at a time;
Enjoying my journey;
Accepting that the road to wellness can be hard;
Taking the tools of better eating out into the world
As I should, free from the bad habits of the past;
Trusting that making wise decisions today will pay off tomorrow;
If I surrender to my will
I will not beat myself up in this life and the next
But I will remember that this is a life long journey;
A journey that is well worth every pound lost.

Into Each Life Some Rain Must Fall

Can't help thinking how strange sometimes when ludicrous people reject each other. Throwing all reason for a season of mindless escapement. Like playing a rehearsal in a enclosed space, let you listen to all sorts of turn-and-twist. Yet they struggle too hard in the hurricane of arguments to wreck down all the opponents. Until end of the day, i could see they are intoxicate themselves in the aftermath of wrestle. Denying the fact that one would not want to admit, feign a flawless image that he thinks is perfect. In fact, it is too ugly to be revealed. A straightforward reply would make a world difference. Just a simple NO.

Against The Clock

Health freak.

That is how my dad called me when he saw me was busy in the kitchen with veges. Lettuces, tomatoes, cucumbers, apples, and a little thousand island dressing make my day. Gain weight is ten times easier than lose weight, what a wonderful thing in world.





Working is fun. But I need to earn more in a short period of time, what keeps me going is only money. Really glad that i tried this job. I've learnt alot. I am sure i will miss all my crazy colleagues soon. Thanks for everything ya.


This is the phone where i spend my day on it. Red colour means on the line, but this happens only once in a blue moon. Probably after getting scold from out manager and happen for like few hours and then back to normal again.


So that was one afternoon, the Raj was playing with the fire extinguisher and then suddenly the whole office was whitely fumed. He is too playful. O.0 The desk, chair, floor were all dusty and his playfulness troubled the pak cik cleaner to clean up the mess that he left.





My manager(guy) and one of my colleague(girl). Handsome boh? LOL


True Fitness outdoor swimming pool on 4th floor.







p/s: sorry for the not quality pictures nowadays. My photoshop software is gone due to the recent com reformat.

Recollection of the broken pieces

bloody. harsh. fake. confused.

LOST!



reclaiming the crown.

Thanks for your remind
Clock is ticking
Only effort can prove myself
Give up makes failures
Journey is never too smooth for success
The smoother it is
The harder i will tumble down
The lesser lesson i can take
Obstacles grow one stronger
Time pays me experience
Life eventually becomes a story
A interesting one

"xxx, this is Britney calling from true fitness. Actually i would like to invite you to our club for free 7 days of memberships trial."

Britney starts the stories.

2nd March, I waited alone for 4 hours before someone realised my attendance and guided me to start working. The office is just a small one, still manage to fit 16 consultants in. It takes me one day to mix in, get used to all my funny colleagues. They show all types of craziness and languages as you could imagine. My life changed on the day they gave me a name.

BRITNEY.

She makes phone calls, talks like a profesional, acts like she knows everything, making up stories. In fact, she knows very little. She is only a rookie. One thing she did quite successful: people believe what she tells.

So, no one knows who in the world called kah yoke.

Since i worked at true fitness, i never long for any off days. In fact, I feel exciting to go work. I never like off days because once i come back from off day, it is always like I've missed something undone. And then, there I start to slack and being la-la land. 10 hours of working hour never grow me weary though.

Consultants never stop talking unless they lost their voices. With my sexy voice i could not able to make calls, meet clients for precious 3 days. I coughed badly at my office until i have to go home after sitting down and stand for only few hours.

I've learned lots of things during the past one month. Things that are not written in book. Advices and grandma stories from clients, manager and colleagues. What they can show me is the experiences they had gone through. I appreciate things, have faith in making things happen, try to maintain a positive mind always.

Soon, i could mind-read people. The good ones, ugly ones, honest ones, liars and so on.