My funny little ways.

It's been a long while since i chatted with my friends whether in facebook, msn, whatsapp or anywhere else online. Until recently i found myself starting to make the first move to talk to them. Perhaps, I'm born to be playful and casually spam jokes around, sometimes lame ones and sometimes cold ones. But for every stupid things i have ever said, i just wish to cheer them up or perhaps cheer myself up. And i hoped that they wouldn't mind spending a few minutes of theirs to laugh with me.

Speaking of casual chatting, recently some of my friends told me that they miss my cooking. I feel so surprised and warm inside me, when someone actually remember those little little petty things I did for them and when I already threw all of them at the back of my head. Though i know they were merely saying it and didn't really mean it. But I'm still feel glad that my efforts were placed in the rooms of their heart C:

Well, I'm not talented in cooking but i like to cook and bake. I'm not sure why, when I cook I don't really follow how the recipe goes, I just follow my feelings. This is why i always ended up with failed attempts. I failed in my very own ways, and friends used to eat them and give no too bad comments.

It makes me smile when i recall the times when my sushi went too sour with too much of vinegar, my cake was too hard to even feed my dog, my uncooked spaghetti, burnt dishes, Cawanmushi with too much of OX and all my tasteless, too sour, too salty, too oily productions or maybe too disgusted just to take a look at it.

My embarrassment just simply couldn't ease off especially when i watched my friends eat my failed attempts. Although they have been very polite to me and said my cooking were not bad. Consolations i knew, but i take them as compliments. hha!

This also reminded me of times when my friends and I stayed up just to finish our undone baking, messy kitchen and all the clumsy stupid things we did at crazy hours when half of the earth was snoring their ways to dreamland. But lately all my friends are busy with their own works, university life makes everyone a different timetable. I hope one day we can gather and do all the random things together like we used to be! :) Goodnight~ oxox

心理测试题：我喜欢玫瑰!你呢?

下面有4种花，选出你最喜欢的一种，就能测试出你从事哪种职业容易发财？

　　A：木棉

　　B：玫瑰

　　C：郁金香

　　D：香水百合

答案分析：测测你做什么职业容易发财

　　你选择：木棉

　　木棉花是一种很朴素的花，从其高高的树型看，你选择木棉花说明你是一个爽快的人，是不会耍阴谋诡计的人。你交友处世都喜欢直来直去，从不在背后用阴招儿，你不适合从事经营业。如果你具备文学艺术天分的话，写作也是能挣大钱的行当。

　　你选择：玫瑰

　　选择玫瑰花的你，是一位浪漫、任性而无拘无束的人。你追求宽松的生存空间，你一生中把最好的时光都月在吟风诵月的虚幻中。你颇有艺术天分。请注意，你的挣钱机会不是从事体力职业的。

　　你选择：郁金香

　　你是一个感情丰富的人，你对感情十分热衷。但你做事虎头蛇尾，如果一丝不苟地工作的话，你就有发财的希望了。

　　你选择：香水百合

　　你是个生活态度非常严谨的人。你的生活总是有条不紊，你的发式永远不会改变，喜欢洁净，有较高的审美能力。劝你一定要选个好职业，你是个标准的“百万富翁”胚子。

I know I am not hated, but i wish i were loved.

One of these days, I was seeking a way out of the darkest time in my life, but no matter how much i tried and I never gonna make it. It's like an overabundance of pathway choices in a maze, i chose and i choose, every decision i made has often been a little too frivolous. Apparently my life has come up with unplanned outings, trying to be an outgoing person but it has always ended up with all my ridiculous extravagant days. Worst when it comes to the hardest part, that i had to cope with reality when all these temporary contentment are vanished into thin air.

There is saying -being willing to take the first steps in faith could leads to marvelous heights. Ironically, most of my first steps tumble into a bottomless pit. Greatly, i give out love as much as i can to people around me and i wonder how many of them are actually returned? Sometimes i just secretly wish that random people i meet, they will like me and stay with me and being a long-term-friend. I'm frustrated enough for some of them that can never stop judging. Maybe because I'm not looking interesting enough and soon people forget my present. Some are always telling me to be confident, but i was often dumbfounded by the apparent gap between what is said, what was meant and what was unsaid. Though I aware these ironies in man communication, but i still make the mistake of interpreting things too literally.

For times, i feel like i'm living in my ordinary life all alone, I shed beneath my smiling mask in the dark and truly wish for a lost track of time, so that i would stop counting down on my dull days before i ever busied and indulged myself with all the extravagances again until i finally broke.

What's in my mind

Routine

Homemade breakfast of the day :)

The flow of my life has just entering into a turning point somehow. Well maybe it's because i have just started my job for a couple of weeks and i'm still learning to adapt myself in such a new environment. Thinking back about my first day, it was rather disappointed but i have made it though. Thanks for the encouragement from my dearest and managers.

On the fourth day, I got the news from my cousin that my aunty is going to pass away. I always know this time would come and I have ready for it in fact, she has been fighting for her cancer for few years already. I feel so sad to watch her fights till the last gasp of breath and the last tears that wet her eyes has stung my heart. She struggled and tried all her best to stay alive, maybe due to the fright of facing death she has gone through all kinds of chemotherapy. At the end, her body just couldn't take it, eventually she was too weak to fight any longer. RIP.

Back to my daily routine, my fellow coursemates have started their new sem. But it's actually a 3 months semester break we are having, and yes i have decided to work part time while the rest of my friends are taking some subjects in advanced. Hope everything goes well :)

I have been starting to meet more clients, so it's my 14th day now. Yes, i would confess that each time when i spend time to talk to some of my clients they leave me feeling like jealous, less interesting, less talented and under achiever. Nonetheless, i still appreciate all the people that i have talked to and it would be a time of change for myself to keep going.

So yeah, that's all about my current update. See ya, peeps!

Italinese dinner

Off day at Italinese! We ordered 3 starters, 2 main course and a strawberry cheesecake. At the end we had to take away the left over chicken, pasta and the cheesecake. LOL. I know we were a little greedy. The next day only i realized the cheesecake is way too large compared to the usual cheesecake out there. Nevertheless, it was still a very nice meal. The cheesecake is very nice even though I eat it after keeping in the fridge for another 2 days. i will go back for the cake for sure!

Exams ended.

Hey hey hey,

It's been a month!

I'm officially unbound from being slaves to my notes.

Neither happy nor sad though,

exhausted is the right word.

Most ridiculous was the last 3 papers!

In 48 hours,

broke my record,

6 cups of coffees,

40 hours sitting down with notes,

Sleep less than 6 hours.

Examination,

it finally slipped by.

After weeks of struggles and hard fights,

See you next year! :)

Too tired to think of any holidays plans. I need to sleep!!